Friday, August 3, 2012

I'm okay with coloring outside the lines....

Over the past few months, I have been saying that I am finally figuring out who I am and I am definitely liking that changes in my life. I saw this a few months ago and I think it says a lot about how I am feeling these past few months.

So, who have I finally realized I am? A friend asked me if I could put it one sentence what it be? I thought about it. I could say that I finally realized that I am physically strong. I could say that I am a runner. I could say that I can do so much more, in a physical sense, then I ever thought possible. I could say that I am energetic and happy. I could say that I am getting healthy. I could say that I realize that I can meet challenges of all different sorts. I can say that I am learning that I am fearless in many respect. I can say that I am enjoying life and finally living a life I deserve. 

There are a lot of things I could say but none of them really say everything that I feel has been revealed to me in the last few months. My physical well being has improved dramatically and I know that. But I have figured out so much more about who I am.

I think I can sum it up in one sentence but it may need some explanation. My sentence is --  I am finally realizing that I am okay if I color outside the lines*. It is okay not to be perfect. It is okay to fail at times. It is okay to have moments where I may not reach my expectations. I can have bad days without thinking that it is the end of the world as I know it. I can ask for help. I can lean on people.

It is important to be resilient and I think I am. In fact, I am doing another stair climb this weekend. I am even going to be timed. I am going to do it because I like doing them....and it is okay that at times I color outside the lines.

*We spent some time with friends and their three year old girl the day after my stair climb melt down. At one point, the little girl started to cry because she wasn't a good "colorer". Tim, my ever insightful husband, asked me what was wrong with females...whether they be three or in their forties, they never do anything good enough...not good at coloring...not good at stair climbing.


  1. I think one thing that holds all of us back is this "perfectionist" mindset that we have. It also contributes to procrastination because we are afraid we will do less than perfect or not be able to keep up or not beat our last time or whatever else we dream up. Who cares? Just us it seems. Let's not let ourselves get away with that anymore what do you say?

    1. Agree...I still will struggle with it...but now I have a better mindset about it all. I hope you are doing well.

  2. Thank you for the lovely comment you left on my blog today.
    It is nice to know that while I do not follow the low carb/paleo diet you have not seen fit to tell me I'm killing myself like some do/have.
    I think the diet you are on is an excellent diet, if you can stick to it.

    The only reason I am not doing it is??? I think just cos I'm DAMNED if I'll cave in and do what certain people tell me I should be doing! I wouldn't give them the satisfaction! Pig headed... too right!

    Plus, I've got a largish family, and I cook using carbs for them as they NEED them, so I eat the food too.

    I will never believe growing children and young adults can survive on a low low carb diet.

    As I said on me blog, what works for YOU is the way to go!

    Well done on your losses to date, the stair climbing (OMG I hate stairs!) lol.

    1. I will always maintain that each of us has to find our own way. I think that is why so many people fail to change their lives...that is, because they try so hard to follow a path that worked for someone else.

      I hope you are finding what works for you.